Thanksgiving.

I'll just blog about everything starting concert day.
Everything I remember at least.

November 21, 2008 was our "Hey!Didn't I See You on Youtube?" concert, which I was working my fcking ASSSS off on, selling tickets, advertising, posters. idk that shit. But it all paid off in the end. Sophomores won the ticket selling the contest. So we got more of the profit! But we lost money on those posters, and then made it up with the profits we earned. kekekeke, yeaaahhh. It's okay. I got to meet Reynard Silva, Gabe Bondoc, Cable Car Stars, and Lori Abucayan. SO ITS ALL GOOD. ANDANDAND OMFG. Spindizzy, the mfcking cute dj gave me his number because I was his favorite that night. YEEEE SONN. no lie. He even texted back! kekeke. yeahh, I was giddy and shit. Came home, got yelled at by parents. Whatevs.

Also, that one Kindred essay was due. Our english class spent over a week working on it. I hope I got a good grade on it. It felt so good to get it off my chest.

Novmeber 24th.
I think it was today.
That you finally noticed me. ;]

November 26th.
Half day/first day of Thanksgiving break.
In the morning, it wasn't raining, so I was pretty lucky to have P.E. first period and run in the dry weather. But later onn, it started pouringg and shit, wasted my whole afternoon. I was supposed to go hangout with Lillian. Sigh, oh well. It's okay. I ended up calling my dad to pick me up because mother was out shopping or something. Idk. I really hate going places with him. The car ride was awkward/ annoying, the usual nagging about studying and school. Uhm, later he took me to greatmall to get my phone switched back to my old number, and then to send in my blackberry. Sigh. I'm waiting on Abbas's glyde.

November 27th/28th.
I laid around all day, reading Breaking Dawn. Got through it halfway while texting jazlyn/kasey/lilian/pacada. AND THENNNNNNNN when the clock struck 10P.M. ALLAA MY GRUHSSS showed up at my house for black friday shopping! We went to greatmall at 11 and waited at gate 2 so we could be the first ones in to forever 21, and get free shit. Once we got there, hella girls pushed and shoved us at the doors. It was fcking crazzy, but me and Janine held on to each other hella tight until we got through the doors. =] I didn't get the coupon thing, but I got the free shit anyways. LOL. one for each of us! It was Jazlyn, Janine, Kasey, Lillian, and Michelle, and me. yeah, I got a whole bunch of stuff at H&M, and saw spindizzy! haha, I hugged him, and of course he remembered me! got me all giddy for a minute or so there. We kept seeing like 3209423434 people that we knew. It got KINDAAA annoying, but oh well. Anyway, so we got home at 3A.M. and then me, jazlyn, and janine went over to Lillian's at 5 A.M. and went to Valley Fair. LOLL. mm, we shopped til 11 P.M. I don't know how the hell we managed. But we were all mfcking delusional. JAZLYN . OH GEEZ JAZLYN WAS THE FUNNIEST. SHE KEPT LAUGHING AT NOTHING. HAHAHAHA AND ACTING ALL DIZZY AND SHIITT. kasey lillian and michelle seemed to have managed fine. geez, freaks. =] We didn't buy alot of stuff. Well, they did. I didn't. mm, went home at like 12 30? and took a long ass nap til 5. Fucking janine and jazlyn drew on my face during my nap. Bitches. I woke up with pink highlighter all over my left cheek. hahhaah.

In the end, I just want you guys to know that I love you.
No lie.
That was my first real all nighter, and I was glad I spent it with you!
It was more of a girlbonding time, I'd have to say, even though we did have hella fun.
You're the closest friends I've had in these 15 years of life.
I hope we don't get into childish fights and lose it to something stupid, like accidentally 'ditching' or some shit.

CUUHHHZ WE BE BEASTINN AS THE MFCKING GREEENBERRIESS.

P.s. Thanks, I hated running into you at Urban. It would've been so different if we were still friends. You would've been WITH us, not with your brother and his friends. You would've been watching Jazlyn go crazy over her pie. You could've spent quality time with Janine. I know you don't really fit in with the others. But at least try..Janine isn't that close to them, but she's still having fun. If you're reading this, I bet all you're thinking right now is 'I don't give a fuck, I don't want to spend time with you guys.' Idk. Whatever. I really do miss you. But I don't know why you have to be so stubborn. I made one mistake. I'm sorry I left you at Aids Walk. I thought you would've just tagged along, but I guess not. I didn't trash about you, I heard that you were the one trashing about ME, and I got mad so I guess things slipped. I don't know why you can't forgive me, I don't know why you're not talking to Jazlyn. Isn't it weird for us not to be friends? The first time you got mad at me, you apologized saying 'I have this problem. It's called being an asshole' I remmeber it hella clearly because I wasted 2 weeks trying so hard to get you to forgive me. It was over a dumb reason too. I'm not gonna go through with that anymore. Until you're ready to talk to me this time, I'll be ready to forgive. Just know that, this whole animosity is really childish.


November 29th.
Thanks mom and dad.
Thanks for pressuring me so hard to do good in life.
I don't need anymore insults on how stupid I am.
I think I can realize it for myself.

Sorry you're pregnant.
Actually, sorry you're giving birth today.
Sorry we have a fucked up family.
Sorry your baby won't know who her real daddy is.
I'm just really sorry, dad won't even let me be there for you.
I really want to.
I can't even imagine what you're going through.