I feel pointless.

It's November already, and I realized I don't put much of an effort to blog on a regular basis. Lol. It's like an average of 3 blogs every month. How sad. Anyways, I ended October with a wonderful Halloween with my lovers Jazlyn, Janine and Lillliannnn. kekekke. We went out for HSM3, went home, trickortreated, ate spaghetti, chatted, did the usual girl stuff. It was nice to spend some quality time with them. haha felt good. I miss you Janine! I hella wished you went to PHHS. It's funny how are friendship is so tight, even though were rarely see each other? But I love it! So no matter. Anyways, Lex's birthday is in a couple days, and I'm trying to plan a surprise party for him. SO FAR: FAIL. aslkdjgalsdg. sighh, stupid little boy. I just have to care so much.

Life at school has been okay, I guess.
There isn't much to look forward to anymore, haha. I don't have a lover waiting to see my face everyday. Just the everyday people that probably wouldn't mind that much if I wasn't there.

I'm sorry I'm such a bad friend. I want to fix this, but if I try, I know you won't accept an apology. What else can I do?

I'm sorry I treated you like my 'rebound'. or whatever you thought I did. I didn't mean it to be like that. I swear. You meant way more to me than that. I miss those talks we used to have. I can't even give you a proper hug anymore.

I'm glad we're closer, I know I could turn to you for anything.
haha, would it be weird if you knew I had a crush on you before?
But you were so perfect, it was so hard to imagine.
It's okay. ALLL of that is history. I swear ! =]
LOLLLL.

I really wish you meant every word you said.
It'd be the highlight of my sophomore year to be with someone like you.

I love you. Please don't let little things hurt you. It hurts me more to see you like this.

I hate girls. I hate being a girl.
Fck it, lets get sex changes.

sike.


AHhaha, well now THAT's over with.
Let's start off this month FRE$H.