Happy Birthday Lex.

I'm sorry today was so crappy for you.
Idk, I bet you school was fun.
I hate it how our parents ruin everything.
I really wanted to surprise you with a cake, and do something nice for once.
I'm sorry.

Today, you're 11. Another year closer to getting out of the fcking house.
Don't worry, we'll get there.


Who am I to you?
I'm not a fucking dog.
NO, you wouldn't even treat an animal like that.
I'm not a fucking punching bag, you have no right to push me around like that.
I've taken enough abuse.
It's been 15 years, and I've lived with it my whole life.
I put up with these tears every week, and you don't even care.
I've taken you as an example for what I WON'T grow up into.
I don't need you to tell me I'm stupid.
I'm not stupid, I've been pressured enough, and I can't take it anymore.
You won't be the thanks for when I'm grown and successful.
I don't love you.
I know it.
I'm sorry.