Thanksgiving.

I'll just blog about everything starting concert day.
Everything I remember at least.

November 21, 2008 was our "Hey!Didn't I See You on Youtube?" concert, which I was working my fcking ASSSS off on, selling tickets, advertising, posters. idk that shit. But it all paid off in the end. Sophomores won the ticket selling the contest. So we got more of the profit! But we lost money on those posters, and then made it up with the profits we earned. kekekeke, yeaaahhh. It's okay. I got to meet Reynard Silva, Gabe Bondoc, Cable Car Stars, and Lori Abucayan. SO ITS ALL GOOD. ANDANDAND OMFG. Spindizzy, the mfcking cute dj gave me his number because I was his favorite that night. YEEEE SONN. no lie. He even texted back! kekeke. yeahh, I was giddy and shit. Came home, got yelled at by parents. Whatevs.

Also, that one Kindred essay was due. Our english class spent over a week working on it. I hope I got a good grade on it. It felt so good to get it off my chest.

Novmeber 24th.
I think it was today.
That you finally noticed me. ;]

November 26th.
Half day/first day of Thanksgiving break.
In the morning, it wasn't raining, so I was pretty lucky to have P.E. first period and run in the dry weather. But later onn, it started pouringg and shit, wasted my whole afternoon. I was supposed to go hangout with Lillian. Sigh, oh well. It's okay. I ended up calling my dad to pick me up because mother was out shopping or something. Idk. I really hate going places with him. The car ride was awkward/ annoying, the usual nagging about studying and school. Uhm, later he took me to greatmall to get my phone switched back to my old number, and then to send in my blackberry. Sigh. I'm waiting on Abbas's glyde.

November 27th/28th.
I laid around all day, reading Breaking Dawn. Got through it halfway while texting jazlyn/kasey/lilian/pacada. AND THENNNNNNNN when the clock struck 10P.M. ALLAA MY GRUHSSS showed up at my house for black friday shopping! We went to greatmall at 11 and waited at gate 2 so we could be the first ones in to forever 21, and get free shit. Once we got there, hella girls pushed and shoved us at the doors. It was fcking crazzy, but me and Janine held on to each other hella tight until we got through the doors. =] I didn't get the coupon thing, but I got the free shit anyways. LOL. one for each of us! It was Jazlyn, Janine, Kasey, Lillian, and Michelle, and me. yeah, I got a whole bunch of stuff at H&M, and saw spindizzy! haha, I hugged him, and of course he remembered me! got me all giddy for a minute or so there. We kept seeing like 3209423434 people that we knew. It got KINDAAA annoying, but oh well. Anyway, so we got home at 3A.M. and then me, jazlyn, and janine went over to Lillian's at 5 A.M. and went to Valley Fair. LOLL. mm, we shopped til 11 P.M. I don't know how the hell we managed. But we were all mfcking delusional. JAZLYN . OH GEEZ JAZLYN WAS THE FUNNIEST. SHE KEPT LAUGHING AT NOTHING. HAHAHAHA AND ACTING ALL DIZZY AND SHIITT. kasey lillian and michelle seemed to have managed fine. geez, freaks. =] We didn't buy alot of stuff. Well, they did. I didn't. mm, went home at like 12 30? and took a long ass nap til 5. Fucking janine and jazlyn drew on my face during my nap. Bitches. I woke up with pink highlighter all over my left cheek. hahhaah.

In the end, I just want you guys to know that I love you.
No lie.
That was my first real all nighter, and I was glad I spent it with you!
It was more of a girlbonding time, I'd have to say, even though we did have hella fun.
You're the closest friends I've had in these 15 years of life.
I hope we don't get into childish fights and lose it to something stupid, like accidentally 'ditching' or some shit.

CUUHHHZ WE BE BEASTINN AS THE MFCKING GREEENBERRIESS.

P.s. Thanks, I hated running into you at Urban. It would've been so different if we were still friends. You would've been WITH us, not with your brother and his friends. You would've been watching Jazlyn go crazy over her pie. You could've spent quality time with Janine. I know you don't really fit in with the others. But at least try..Janine isn't that close to them, but she's still having fun. If you're reading this, I bet all you're thinking right now is 'I don't give a fuck, I don't want to spend time with you guys.' Idk. Whatever. I really do miss you. But I don't know why you have to be so stubborn. I made one mistake. I'm sorry I left you at Aids Walk. I thought you would've just tagged along, but I guess not. I didn't trash about you, I heard that you were the one trashing about ME, and I got mad so I guess things slipped. I don't know why you can't forgive me, I don't know why you're not talking to Jazlyn. Isn't it weird for us not to be friends? The first time you got mad at me, you apologized saying 'I have this problem. It's called being an asshole' I remmeber it hella clearly because I wasted 2 weeks trying so hard to get you to forgive me. It was over a dumb reason too. I'm not gonna go through with that anymore. Until you're ready to talk to me this time, I'll be ready to forgive. Just know that, this whole animosity is really childish.


November 29th.
Thanks mom and dad.
Thanks for pressuring me so hard to do good in life.
I don't need anymore insults on how stupid I am.
I think I can realize it for myself.

Sorry you're pregnant.
Actually, sorry you're giving birth today.
Sorry we have a fucked up family.
Sorry your baby won't know who her real daddy is.
I'm just really sorry, dad won't even let me be there for you.
I really want to.
I can't even imagine what you're going through.

Fail.

ew, today's trip to Bell sucked. Like alot.
I'm sorry you guys, my parents ruin everything.
Just go without me next time.

It was nice seeing the guys,
Desmond, Matt, Mark, Russell, Shao, haha you knoww, the boys from summer school.
Anyways, I miss your hugs dude, no one hugs me like that anymore. Freals.
haha, I DIDN'T WANNA LET GO. I blame you.





Do you even care what I'm feeling?
It's not a game.
I'm a person with a heart that shouldn't be toyed with.
I got better things to worry about than you.
You're just another distraction.
Thanks.


I miss you my INDIAN FRIEND.
HAHAHAHAHHAh <3


& History Channel brings out all the evidence on the end of the world on
December 21, 2012.

Apparently, in the ancient times, these wack old people prophesized futuristic inventions/wars/monuments that are existing TODAY. Also, their predictions all ended at the exact date of December 21, 2012. The winter solstice is supposed to occur, and the whole planet is supposed to flip upside down, causing the poles to be on opposite sides of the earth and everything to be destroyed.

How freakish. I needa start living life, for another 4 years. Just in case.

How depressing.

So I've noticed how most of my blogs are sad, and prettty shitty. No, my life isn't alll just shit. I tend to vent my feelings through this whenever I'm sad so it'd make me feel better. I guess it's not as important to blog about every time I'm happy. ahah how lame.

Today was uneventful. Woke up, got ready for Viet school. Came to class late to find that I was the only teacher there today. Poor kids. They were so confused. I got started off with the lesson, and crammed in as much I could in the first hour. Later, I had to rush through grading papers and whatnot. Haha, got to spend funtime with the kids! Apparently they like me better than the older teachers. ORR THEY'RE JUST BULLSHITTING ME. ahahhaa, whateverrrr, made my day. It was prettty cute. mmm, went home and took a napp. Lol, I have this problem with eating too much. -____-

Yeah I know I'm in denial.
I don't want it to happen JAZLYN.
I know I'll get hurt.
kekekkee,

I want you exlcusive <3

Four day weekend.

better be great.
I need this shit to clear my mind.
So anyways, I guess today was alright.
School was cool and all, until dad came to pick me up.
Whatever.
Forget it, same shit happens all the time.
Why can't you be proud of what I am already?


Random thoughts.
1. I'm really glad, we were able to catch up. WINKWINK.
2. Thanks. I just need you to talk to someone I can trust.
3. Maybe really badbadbad karma's gonna get you back.
4. Hi cutie, can I holla?
5. Stop flirting with me, it's kinda retarded how you think I be all over your jock.
6. I miss you. Why are we from different worlds?
7. Let's be more than friends.
8. I wonder if guys ever do what girls do on myspace.
9. Hi Kasey, I hope you do well in your pageant, it was empty today.
10. Mfckers better ship me my phone by tomorrow morning.
11. Can we stop with this weird break in friendship? Idk why we're still mad at each other.
12. You're so smart. I'm jealous of you.
13. Please stop thinking about him, it's making me worried.
14. I really hope I can make it Tues.
15. Can I just touch you? You're so mfcking FINEEE.
16. Goddamn, this girl can sing.
17. Hold my hand again? I kinda liked it. ;D
18. I'm feeling very unloved lately.
19. AHHAHAHA, THIS IS KINDA PATHETIC.
20. Shut the fuck up, you need to grow up too, we're in high school now.
21. I need to get that A in english.
22. YES WE CAN !

Happy Birthday Lex.

I'm sorry today was so crappy for you.
Idk, I bet you school was fun.
I hate it how our parents ruin everything.
I really wanted to surprise you with a cake, and do something nice for once.
I'm sorry.

Today, you're 11. Another year closer to getting out of the fcking house.
Don't worry, we'll get there.


Who am I to you?
I'm not a fucking dog.
NO, you wouldn't even treat an animal like that.
I'm not a fucking punching bag, you have no right to push me around like that.
I've taken enough abuse.
It's been 15 years, and I've lived with it my whole life.
I put up with these tears every week, and you don't even care.
I've taken you as an example for what I WON'T grow up into.
I don't need you to tell me I'm stupid.
I'm not stupid, I've been pressured enough, and I can't take it anymore.
You won't be the thanks for when I'm grown and successful.
I don't love you.
I know it.
I'm sorry.

OBAMA BITCH.

So today, he won.
=]

And I just thought, it'd be nice to save this moment in history and appreciate the first African American president of the United States.

I feel pointless.

It's November already, and I realized I don't put much of an effort to blog on a regular basis. Lol. It's like an average of 3 blogs every month. How sad. Anyways, I ended October with a wonderful Halloween with my lovers Jazlyn, Janine and Lillliannnn. kekekke. We went out for HSM3, went home, trickortreated, ate spaghetti, chatted, did the usual girl stuff. It was nice to spend some quality time with them. haha felt good. I miss you Janine! I hella wished you went to PHHS. It's funny how are friendship is so tight, even though were rarely see each other? But I love it! So no matter. Anyways, Lex's birthday is in a couple days, and I'm trying to plan a surprise party for him. SO FAR: FAIL. aslkdjgalsdg. sighh, stupid little boy. I just have to care so much.

Life at school has been okay, I guess.
There isn't much to look forward to anymore, haha. I don't have a lover waiting to see my face everyday. Just the everyday people that probably wouldn't mind that much if I wasn't there.

I'm sorry I'm such a bad friend. I want to fix this, but if I try, I know you won't accept an apology. What else can I do?

I'm sorry I treated you like my 'rebound'. or whatever you thought I did. I didn't mean it to be like that. I swear. You meant way more to me than that. I miss those talks we used to have. I can't even give you a proper hug anymore.

I'm glad we're closer, I know I could turn to you for anything.
haha, would it be weird if you knew I had a crush on you before?
But you were so perfect, it was so hard to imagine.
It's okay. ALLL of that is history. I swear ! =]
LOLLLL.

I really wish you meant every word you said.
It'd be the highlight of my sophomore year to be with someone like you.

I love you. Please don't let little things hurt you. It hurts me more to see you like this.

I hate girls. I hate being a girl.
Fck it, lets get sex changes.

sike.


AHhaha, well now THAT's over with.
Let's start off this month FRE$H.