Jazlyn is a fag (=
<3
LOL. I love you too!
Anyway, nothing exciting to look forward to this year.
My fucking dad is staying home all week, so I don't get the fucking house to myself.LKSDJGSDGSDGSDG. UGH. Freaking pisses me off.
School was okay, I guess. I did pretty good on my 3 tests! Well, I hope I did. Mm, got the skit preparations for the winter rally done, and now I'm just worried about the actual SKIT. I'm scared it's gonna turn out like crap, because we havent even SEEN the people who are doing it, and they probably don't know exactly what they're doing. Whatever, bitches better not blame me if it sucks.
Went home, helped mommy out with the food. We're doing some remembering date for grandma's death. It's kinda sad how I never even met her. I wish I did though, she seems like such a nice person. She would've been one of those grandma's that bakes me cookies and stuff. =/ Too bad she died of a heart condition.
Sorry Chandni, I wish I could go to your sweet 16.
But I don't think I can.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Mymy,
I love you. I hope you feeel better. And idk why im posting in hurr. I hope you don't mind. Nobody else can read this. RIGHT...? Well k bye h0333333333!
I found a lucky penny today.
Which once again,
hella reminded me of you.
I found one on the day we started talking.
lskjdalgksdlaksdafreakingshitlaskdjgadg.
yeah, I acted GREAT at school actually. I hope you had a good day too. Anyway, my day wasn't exactly WONDERFUL. I have 3 MAJORMAJOR tests tomorrow fuck. And this winter rally skit stuff? It's hella pissing me off. Thanks for not agreeing, do whatever you want, don't put the blame on me if it sucks. Lol, I shouldn't even be working on that stuff, I'm not an officer? whateverrrr.
I'm thinking about when to apologize to you. I don't even know if you deserve one. Actually, you don't. But I'm gonna do it anyways. Just to save our friendship before things get worse.
SO LIKE, IS IT WEIRD that we were matching today? IDK, I THOUGHT IT WAS HELLA WEIRD. the day AFTER it's done, we match! Not even planned out or anythingg. You wore my favorite shoes and the outfit to the library that one day again. fuck, I miss you.
Wasn't trying to avoid you or anything. I actually wanted to have a conversation, but you walked away.
Hella people came up to me, and asked if we were okay.
Not hella, but Abraham did too. So I was like wtf? this is hella random.
Felt like crying when he brought it up, w/e.
hella reminded me of you.
I found one on the day we started talking.
lskjdalgksdlaksdafreakingshitlaskdjgadg.
yeah, I acted GREAT at school actually. I hope you had a good day too. Anyway, my day wasn't exactly WONDERFUL. I have 3 MAJORMAJOR tests tomorrow fuck. And this winter rally skit stuff? It's hella pissing me off. Thanks for not agreeing, do whatever you want, don't put the blame on me if it sucks. Lol, I shouldn't even be working on that stuff, I'm not an officer? whateverrrr.
I'm thinking about when to apologize to you. I don't even know if you deserve one. Actually, you don't. But I'm gonna do it anyways. Just to save our friendship before things get worse.
SO LIKE, IS IT WEIRD that we were matching today? IDK, I THOUGHT IT WAS HELLA WEIRD. the day AFTER it's done, we match! Not even planned out or anythingg. You wore my favorite shoes and the outfit to the library that one day again. fuck, I miss you.
Wasn't trying to avoid you or anything. I actually wanted to have a conversation, but you walked away.
Hella people came up to me, and asked if we were okay.
Not hella, but Abraham did too. So I was like wtf? this is hella random.
Felt like crying when he brought it up, w/e.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Hole in my chest.mp3
Wow, that was hella abrupt.
It was just saturday, that we were having fun, and yesterday you were playing around with me like everything was just PEACHY. Please just admit, that you don't have the same feelings anymore. =/ It's better that way, instead of lying to yourself. No it's not that you were being a jerk, it doesn't matter if you think you're not good enough. I still felt for you the same, regardless. I've told you that many times already; I'm not afraid to get hurt again. It's happened so many times already. You're just another one of my lessons learned. I don't regret it, I was happy in the period of time that we were yeah. And it's noww, that you admit you liked me first? or idk. Just let it go okay? I'll fix things with my friends, and we'll go back to our old lives. It doesn't matter anymore, I just need time to forgive myself for this.
But honestly, everything I do reminds me of you.
Not everything, but most of it.
Cereal, crew neck sweaters, chapstick, lollipop flavored lips, webcam, even fucking blockles.
I can't stand it.
I can't even talk to you the same.
I'm trying not to make things awkward, and pretending it's okay.
you know, it's not. Why can't you just make an effort to fix things?
I'm sorry we didn't start off as friends, or stay friends.
I'm reallyreally sorry. I should've just kept it to myself.
"It's not just lust, mymy"
Wow, I hella remember that too.
The first time you tried telling me you loved me.
I seriously didn't know what to say.
And after that, you just stopped because I didn't feel the same way yet? The hell, boy, you got me hella confused. Whatever.
K, I didn't mean that.
No, you were a great guy to me. The only one that kept me up in those weeks I was down. You're so much more than I expected. I'm just being emotional right now. Sorry. Again.
First night in a while without talking to you.
It's gonna be hard to get used to.
I miss you.
And sorry if you had to read this.
I was never really a sweet girl.
Maybe that's why you got tired of me.
It was just saturday, that we were having fun, and yesterday you were playing around with me like everything was just PEACHY. Please just admit, that you don't have the same feelings anymore. =/ It's better that way, instead of lying to yourself. No it's not that you were being a jerk, it doesn't matter if you think you're not good enough. I still felt for you the same, regardless. I've told you that many times already; I'm not afraid to get hurt again. It's happened so many times already. You're just another one of my lessons learned. I don't regret it, I was happy in the period of time that we were yeah. And it's noww, that you admit you liked me first? or idk. Just let it go okay? I'll fix things with my friends, and we'll go back to our old lives. It doesn't matter anymore, I just need time to forgive myself for this.
But honestly, everything I do reminds me of you.
Not everything, but most of it.
Cereal, crew neck sweaters, chapstick, lollipop flavored lips, webcam, even fucking blockles.
I can't stand it.
I can't even talk to you the same.
I'm trying not to make things awkward, and pretending it's okay.
you know, it's not. Why can't you just make an effort to fix things?
I'm sorry we didn't start off as friends, or stay friends.
I'm reallyreally sorry. I should've just kept it to myself.
"It's not just lust, mymy"
Wow, I hella remember that too.
The first time you tried telling me you loved me.
I seriously didn't know what to say.
And after that, you just stopped because I didn't feel the same way yet? The hell, boy, you got me hella confused. Whatever.
K, I didn't mean that.
No, you were a great guy to me. The only one that kept me up in those weeks I was down. You're so much more than I expected. I'm just being emotional right now. Sorry. Again.
First night in a while without talking to you.
It's gonna be hard to get used to.
I miss you.
And sorry if you had to read this.
I was never really a sweet girl.
Maybe that's why you got tired of me.
Monday, December 15, 2008
10 minutes.
Until I wake Matt Ganan from his nap!
Until babe finishes studying and calls me <3.
Today was uneventful.
Ish.
Happy birthday Peter Thai!
Yeah, I've only known you for a few months, the beginning of this year actually!
But it's coo and errything, I got 3 classes with you? And you've proved yourself to be a worthy friend. SO TODAY, you got your cake. kekeke, Thanks for caking me bitch.
Until babe finishes studying and calls me <3.
Today was uneventful.
Ish.
Happy birthday Peter Thai!
Yeah, I've only known you for a few months, the beginning of this year actually!
But it's coo and errything, I got 3 classes with you? And you've proved yourself to be a worthy friend. SO TODAY, you got your cake. kekeke, Thanks for caking me bitch.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Santa Baby;
is my new favorite song for the season!
Anyways, I've been giddy the last couple of weeks.
I think I know why.
kekeke,
Thanks for not trashing about me, I know theres tension and all, but at least you don't publicize it on your blogs or something. And for you, idk what you have to do with this whole situation. What have I done to you? Sorry I'm sensitive. Sorry I break easily, that doesn't make me an ugly piece of shit though. But wtf? Even if I did give in, and apologize, I don't know if I could forgive you for all those things YOU'VE said. Honestly, that's 10x worse than whatever I might have done. Thanks for not confronting me when this whole shit started, thanks for taking it way out of proportion. I don't want an apology, FYI. STOP ASSUMING. ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU TRIED TELLING ME? So why the fuck are YOU assuming. Godamn. I thought we understood each other in one point of our friendship.
Whatever.
You'll be alright Jazlyn!
I love you, and I'm with you with whatever happens.
AIIGHT CUH?
with WHATEVER happens.
& I'd also like to forgive you for your stupidity, because if I was in that situation you'd be hella worried about me too.
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: well for one
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: YOU GUYS
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: HAVE LOTS IN COMMON!
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: lol....
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: like
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: really?
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: uhm
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 1. you guys both have legs.
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 2. you guysboth have eyes.
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 3. you guys both know the coolest person ever, JAZLYN
[17:02] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: HAHAHAHAHA
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: LMAO! <33
[17:02] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: HAHAHAHAHAA
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: you love me
slike, what DO we have in common.
Besides the obvious.
It's not important that we don't have much in common.
Like really. It was just something I was just thinking about.
LOL, BOY YOU GOT ME THINKINNN'
almost all the time now.
BADBADBAD.
'cause I needa focus on my studies and shit. You should know that!
Yesterday was my abc club activity. Lol, I hope Kristie doesn't fry my ass for not contributing too much. kekeke. Whatevsss, hmm. The whole beginning, I kept Ross company, and he was being a little bitch, getting me all anxious to see Eric. God, I wanna slap him for it. BUT THATS OKAY. Violence is not the answer! Thanks for coming,love. Sorry if it made you ditch your friends. We had fun though! like LOTSANDLOTS. Sometimes I wonder if THAT'S all you like me for. Because it sure seems like it. I hate how you get mad at me over little things though. =/ Or you're just playing around, and I'm being paranoid. AGAIN. But on a good note, I have veryveryvery strong feelings <3. And for some reason, I can never get tired of you. It's hard going to bed without a phone call! Lol, it's hard going through a whole day without texting you. It's hard not being able to see you, get hugs, and give little kisses. Idk, they mean a lot to me, maybe not for you. But yeahh.
I got what I wanted for Christmas already!
kekkeke.
kinda. I haven't made a materialistic wishlist yeettttt.
And it's just around the cornerrr, shiieett.
Kay, back to blogging about the Joy Luck Club, fuckk.
Anyways, I've been giddy the last couple of weeks.
I think I know why.
kekeke,
Thanks for not trashing about me, I know theres tension and all, but at least you don't publicize it on your blogs or something. And for you, idk what you have to do with this whole situation. What have I done to you? Sorry I'm sensitive. Sorry I break easily, that doesn't make me an ugly piece of shit though. But wtf? Even if I did give in, and apologize, I don't know if I could forgive you for all those things YOU'VE said. Honestly, that's 10x worse than whatever I might have done. Thanks for not confronting me when this whole shit started, thanks for taking it way out of proportion. I don't want an apology, FYI. STOP ASSUMING. ISN'T THAT WHAT YOU TRIED TELLING ME? So why the fuck are YOU assuming. Godamn. I thought we understood each other in one point of our friendship.
Whatever.
You'll be alright Jazlyn!
I love you, and I'm with you with whatever happens.
AIIGHT CUH?
with WHATEVER happens.
& I'd also like to forgive you for your stupidity, because if I was in that situation you'd be hella worried about me too.
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: well for one
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: YOU GUYS
[17:01] jazlynsaywhat: HAVE LOTS IN COMMON!
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: lol....
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: like
[17:01] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: really?
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: uhm
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 1. you guys both have legs.
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 2. you guysboth have eyes.
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: 3. you guys both know the coolest person ever, JAZLYN
[17:02] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: HAHAHAHAHA
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: LMAO! <33
[17:02] MYMYubl0wmyMiND: HAHAHAHAHAA
[17:02] jazlynsaywhat: you love me
slike, what DO we have in common.
Besides the obvious.
It's not important that we don't have much in common.
Like really. It was just something I was just thinking about.
LOL, BOY YOU GOT ME THINKINNN'
almost all the time now.
BADBADBAD.
'cause I needa focus on my studies and shit. You should know that!
Yesterday was my abc club activity. Lol, I hope Kristie doesn't fry my ass for not contributing too much. kekeke. Whatevsss, hmm. The whole beginning, I kept Ross company, and he was being a little bitch, getting me all anxious to see Eric. God, I wanna slap him for it. BUT THATS OKAY. Violence is not the answer! Thanks for coming,love. Sorry if it made you ditch your friends. We had fun though! like LOTSANDLOTS. Sometimes I wonder if THAT'S all you like me for. Because it sure seems like it. I hate how you get mad at me over little things though. =/ Or you're just playing around, and I'm being paranoid. AGAIN. But on a good note, I have veryveryvery strong feelings <3. And for some reason, I can never get tired of you. It's hard going to bed without a phone call! Lol, it's hard going through a whole day without texting you. It's hard not being able to see you, get hugs, and give little kisses. Idk, they mean a lot to me, maybe not for you. But yeahh.
I got what I wanted for Christmas already!
kekkeke.
kinda. I haven't made a materialistic wishlist yeettttt.
And it's just around the cornerrr, shiieett.
Kay, back to blogging about the Joy Luck Club, fuckk.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Greenberries.
I guess it's done for me.
Sorry you guys.
I'm sorry.
I thought you'd support me with this.
But I guess not.
I'm too much of a flirt, so you're afraid I'll hurt HIM?
since when were you more concerned about ME hurting boys?
Usually, it was always the other way around.
If I do, I'll learn from it.
It's my life, and I know you tried telling me, but I didn't need the extra attitude.
Sorry for assuming.
Sorry for telling him shit about not liking him.
It would've been better if I'd known straightup.
And honestly, I did NOT say that dirty shit.
I didn't spread rumors about 'not looking at us the same way'
I probably told someone about MY story, but not yours.
I don't why you didn't confront me the moment you heard about this..
But instead you treated me like I wans't even there.
Whatever.
Sorry you guys.
Sorry you guys.
I'm sorry.
I thought you'd support me with this.
But I guess not.
I'm too much of a flirt, so you're afraid I'll hurt HIM?
since when were you more concerned about ME hurting boys?
Usually, it was always the other way around.
If I do, I'll learn from it.
It's my life, and I know you tried telling me, but I didn't need the extra attitude.
Sorry for assuming.
Sorry for telling him shit about not liking him.
It would've been better if I'd known straightup.
And honestly, I did NOT say that dirty shit.
I didn't spread rumors about 'not looking at us the same way'
I probably told someone about MY story, but not yours.
I don't why you didn't confront me the moment you heard about this..
But instead you treated me like I wans't even there.
Whatever.
Sorry you guys.
Eric Pacada.
So while I'm doing my homework.
I'd just like to tell you how much shit I've been going through ever since we've started talking.
But it's what I've been thinking about for the past few days.
It's not necessarily a bad thing.
Worth it?
Idk yet.
Because I'm being REALLY serious about this,
I'm risking hella for you.
I hope you know that.
No more flirting.
Lockdownn for a while, until I can control myself again.
It's been 2 weeks exactly! I think.
Ever since November 24th, 2008.
I never knew you'd turn out to be such a deep guy.
I never expected someone that cared so much.
You tell me how much I mean to you, and I believe you. <3
I wish I knew what I've done to make you feel this way.
I wish I knew exactly WHY I feel for you, I just do!
Yeah, it's been a hella short time.
So why am I doing this?
Why am I risking so much, and why am I putting myself out there again?
Because the blatant truth is I really do like you.
Idk, I've done alot of stupid things in the past.
I hope you're not another mistake.
To be honest, I'm really scared of losing you.
Fuck you Ross Tran.
I don't care if he loved you first.
He's mine now. keekekeeke.
I'd just like to tell you how much shit I've been going through ever since we've started talking.
But it's what I've been thinking about for the past few days.
It's not necessarily a bad thing.
Worth it?
Idk yet.
Because I'm being REALLY serious about this,
I'm risking hella for you.
I hope you know that.
No more flirting.
Lockdownn for a while, until I can control myself again.
It's been 2 weeks exactly! I think.
Ever since November 24th, 2008.
I never knew you'd turn out to be such a deep guy.
I never expected someone that cared so much.
You tell me how much I mean to you, and I believe you. <3
I wish I knew what I've done to make you feel this way.
I wish I knew exactly WHY I feel for you, I just do!
Yeah, it's been a hella short time.
So why am I doing this?
Why am I risking so much, and why am I putting myself out there again?
Because the blatant truth is I really do like you.
Idk, I've done alot of stupid things in the past.
I hope you're not another mistake.
To be honest, I'm really scared of losing you.
Fuck you Ross Tran.
I don't care if he loved you first.
He's mine now. keekekeeke.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Lovers&Friends.
Dear December,
I love your month second best out of the twelve that exist!
It's the atmosphere of chills, red noses, and the gift of love that make me feel all fuzzy inside.
Be proud.
But it's fucking cold nowadays, and I don't have a lover too mooch a jacket off of. Goddamn, whattafunsucker.
I feel like we're drifting. Are you sure we're as tight as we should be?
You're keeping things away from me, I can feel it.
I know I'm doing things that probably upset you, but does that really matter?
Shouldn't you just be happy for me that I'm having fun?
I can't just readily admit that I have feelings, I honestly don't know if I do or not.
You can't just force me to say that.
What happened to us? I'd really like to know. I'm kinda scared to confront you though, you might think I'm pathetic and drop me like you did to ___________.
=/
I hope things get mended before Christmas time comes.
I really miss you guys.
Thanks.
I know we haven't been talking for that long.
But I like where we are.
It's funny how we just randomly started opening up, and pouring out all this stuff on each other.
You're kinda quiet in person though.
It wasn't like that before.. I hope I don't make you feel awkward or anything.
I wish it could be the same way we talk everywhere else.
Sorry, I'm sitting here crying, thinking I'll lose all the friends I've just gained this year. But wtf? It doesn't have to happen. I'm just scared.
I'll straightup say it.
I hate that we're not friends anymore, Alison.
It just feels weird.
Today, I finally let it out.
I'm sorry.
I love your month second best out of the twelve that exist!
It's the atmosphere of chills, red noses, and the gift of love that make me feel all fuzzy inside.
Be proud.
But it's fucking cold nowadays, and I don't have a lover too mooch a jacket off of. Goddamn, whattafunsucker.
I feel like we're drifting. Are you sure we're as tight as we should be?
You're keeping things away from me, I can feel it.
I know I'm doing things that probably upset you, but does that really matter?
Shouldn't you just be happy for me that I'm having fun?
I can't just readily admit that I have feelings, I honestly don't know if I do or not.
You can't just force me to say that.
What happened to us? I'd really like to know. I'm kinda scared to confront you though, you might think I'm pathetic and drop me like you did to ___________.
=/
I hope things get mended before Christmas time comes.
I really miss you guys.
Thanks.
I know we haven't been talking for that long.
But I like where we are.
It's funny how we just randomly started opening up, and pouring out all this stuff on each other.
You're kinda quiet in person though.
It wasn't like that before.. I hope I don't make you feel awkward or anything.
I wish it could be the same way we talk everywhere else.
Sorry, I'm sitting here crying, thinking I'll lose all the friends I've just gained this year. But wtf? It doesn't have to happen. I'm just scared.
I'll straightup say it.
I hate that we're not friends anymore, Alison.
It just feels weird.
Today, I finally let it out.
I'm sorry.
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