Hole in my chest.mp3

Wow, that was hella abrupt.
It was just saturday, that we were having fun, and yesterday you were playing around with me like everything was just PEACHY. Please just admit, that you don't have the same feelings anymore. =/ It's better that way, instead of lying to yourself. No it's not that you were being a jerk, it doesn't matter if you think you're not good enough. I still felt for you the same, regardless. I've told you that many times already; I'm not afraid to get hurt again. It's happened so many times already. You're just another one of my lessons learned. I don't regret it, I was happy in the period of time that we were yeah. And it's noww, that you admit you liked me first? or idk. Just let it go okay? I'll fix things with my friends, and we'll go back to our old lives. It doesn't matter anymore, I just need time to forgive myself for this.


But honestly, everything I do reminds me of you.
Not everything, but most of it.
Cereal, crew neck sweaters, chapstick, lollipop flavored lips, webcam, even fucking blockles.
I can't stand it.
I can't even talk to you the same.
I'm trying not to make things awkward, and pretending it's okay.
you know, it's not. Why can't you just make an effort to fix things?
I'm sorry we didn't start off as friends, or stay friends.
I'm reallyreally sorry. I should've just kept it to myself.
"It's not just lust, mymy"
Wow, I hella remember that too.
The first time you tried telling me you loved me.
I seriously didn't know what to say.
And after that, you just stopped because I didn't feel the same way yet? The hell, boy, you got me hella confused. Whatever.


K, I didn't mean that.
No, you were a great guy to me. The only one that kept me up in those weeks I was down. You're so much more than I expected. I'm just being emotional right now. Sorry. Again.


First night in a while without talking to you.
It's gonna be hard to get used to.
I miss you.

And sorry if you had to read this.
I was never really a sweet girl.
Maybe that's why you got tired of me.