In the Fast Lane.

Today, my day went completely wrong. I haven't had that many bad days in a while, but it just hit me. I stress too much over school, I forget that I have friends who care about me, and I feel like I take others for granted. Maybe that's why people get tired of me, and end up leaving. Others fear spiders, the dark, ghosts. Loss and failure is what I fear most. I don't mean to make you feel empty, or think I don't care. I do care, at the end of the day, when I get home, I only look forward to one thing. I'm feeling distant from my friends, even with the one person I trust in the most. What happened!? I feel hella weird, don't you? Idk, your phone broke and you're not on aim, so I can't really talk to you. It's been WEIRD, like I'm not even joking. Ohwell, we'll fix it. I know it. But anyway, I need to start waking up earlier and stop being late to p.e. The fucking Ms. Hulse is going through metapause or some shit, and gives me unnecessary bitchfits. I also need to get cleats! Slipping while playing soccer is not fun. Mm, seeing YOUR face everyday, and not being able to talk to you gives me this heavy feeling. I get pissed off for like 3 seconds, and cuss the shit out to a friend or something, and then get over it. Whatever. Failed my chemistry test. I know you tried cheering me up and all. Sorry, I got a little moody. Please don't give up. Just not yet. It's happening all over again, just even quicker than I thought. I hate it, there's something wrong with me. Something that I'm doing wrong. That's the common factor in everything that happens. I wanna be there and tell you I'm just being Mymy. It just happens sometimes, and it's nothing big. I promise. It's not a usual thing, so don't think you'd have to put up with it constantly. Maybe it's my period that's making me feel like shit. That or I'm really changing. Let's hope it's the first one.


I really should be starting my homework, but there's way too much on my mind. I can't be slacking off, not now.

Hope tomorrow's better.