Hectic.

This week has been by far the busiest week yet. Everyday of the week I had some test the next day, hc painting to work on, csf interview, being transferred into a fucking hard spanish class. Idk, all the stress and pressure just built up. Not to mention those wasted minutes thinking about you. Friday ended with an in class essay which I needed to get an A on, and right now I'm doubting myself. The football game was after school, but Jazlyn decided to take us to her house for the FIRST TIME EVER! I would've been more excited if it wasn't for that essay. Whatever. Anyways, when we got there, we found her doggie in the backyard and it was SO CUTE. Too bad Jazlyn sucks at being an owner. One day, I'm gonna kidnap her dog and take her home. Pebbles <3 so cute. anyways, it was hella mfcking hot, but we walked back to the game. and after a little while of waiting, I decided I needed a drink. When I was standing in line deciding on what to drink, DESMOND COMES IN AND RUNS TO ME WITH OPEN ARMS <3. And we just stood there hugging for like who knows how long. I miss that kid! Anyways, Dan and Chris Shao came behind him, and I gave them their hugs tooooo. Later on, me and lilz went to go buy pizza at pizza hut, that disappeared hella fast. The game went by pretty fast, and of course we lost to Bellarmine. Whatever though. By the time varsity game started, hella bell kids came and sat on the PIEDMONT side. wtfeezy, being all disrepectful and shit. Stupid freshman. hahahah, it's all good though. Simos was standing right there watching Alan staring the bell kids down and didn't even bother to stop them. He was just lookinn pisseddd. yeah, but it was good seeing all the bellguys again. Big Eric was there too! I was like wtf?!!? cause I saw him at the end of the game and he was like "MYMY!" out of nowhere! The aftermath of the game wasn't that great. But it's okay. I guess everything worked out today.


I sat at home all day, reading and having some time to myself.
It just made me realize how stupid I am, to keep making the wrong decisions.
I never know what is right, or maybe I do know but I really didn't want to follow it just because it felt right at that moment. I'm sorry. It's not like you feel the same anyways, it's not like you'll ever read this. It's not like you'll ever look at me the same and wish you were mine. It's not like anything you ever said was true. It's not like I can look in your eyes from across the room, and tell what you're thinking anymore. You never notice that I try, just for you. I feel pathetic for it, but I want to make YOU regret it. I wish you could come back and tell me everything's okay. I wish you could just talk to me again like how we used to. I thought I could tell you everything, but I guess not.